ugh i can't shake the awareness of being watched whenever i add new ppl to read. suddenly everything becomes so conscious... so motivated. so arbitrary. at least for e rest they're only at the back of my mind... but new ppl really contribute to the observer effect. and yes. elson. u are the cause of this, in case u were wondering who i was referring to. but =) it's ok.
in church today, sim mentioned smth rather intriguing. apparently in evan almighty -.- the qn was asked: when u ask god to change u, does god make the change or does he grants u with opportunities to change? so when u ask for patience, he doesn't make u less impatient. instead, he sends ppl to piss u off so that u learn how to be patient. lolz. pain is the great teacher~ but it sorta makes sense la. with the free will idea and all that.
but it did get me thinking abt the amt of control we have over our lives, even for those of us who view ourselves as religious. it's not really necessary that being religious implies submitting to some sort of gnostic determinism... faith and free will can coexist. so... i am the master of my fate; i am the captain of my soul. but i guess god's like the vessel we sail in. we are at the helm, hands on the steering wheel. so whether we choose to head straight into a maelstrom, down a waterfall or towards the Lands Beyond~ it's still up to us. but if we choose to change, then god's the one supporting us, whichever direction we choose.
so. anyway. went to watch nus concert ytd. lolz the group of us ate dinner at crystal jade... a nice round table. and it was really nice... very convivial atmosphere. i think in e 2 years we spent together, many of us went past the peak of this batch relationship... so now distance and drift backed it up? i don't know. but to see everyone again... talking so animatedly and so warmly and so comfortably. it was nice =)
and continuing on from that model... i'm quite glad that for this batch, they popped so nicely just at that peak. ok la hard to determine where is the exact tip but we know it's around there. and so that's where it ends. no opportunity for it to continue down the trough. i'll be surprised if it does progress. perhaps it will... there seems like there could be enough precedence. 4 days in their entire bmt without seeing one another only -.- that is seriously powerful.
oh well. always look on the bright side. of life. *whistles* just ignore the shadows that the light cause =) ugh. cynical bitch. stop it.
Name: Foo Guo Zhong Melvyn
Age: 19+
Affiliations: MSHS (Pri), Rosyth, RI, RJC, SFX (LoG)
Bday: 14th Nov
Email: mel_protoss@hotmail.com
ugh i can't shake the awareness of being watched whenever i add new ppl to read. suddenly everything becomes so conscious... so motivated. so arbitrary. at least for e rest they're only at the back of my mind... but new ppl really contribute to the observer effect. and yes. elson. u are the cause of this, in case u were wondering who i was referring to. but =) it's ok.
in church today, sim mentioned smth rather intriguing. apparently in evan almighty -.- the qn was asked: when u ask god to change u, does god make the change or does he grants u with opportunities to change? so when u ask for patience, he doesn't make u less impatient. instead, he sends ppl to piss u off so that u learn how to be patient. lolz. pain is the great teacher~ but it sorta makes sense la. with the free will idea and all that.
but it did get me thinking abt the amt of control we have over our lives, even for those of us who view ourselves as religious. it's not really necessary that being religious implies submitting to some sort of gnostic determinism... faith and free will can coexist. so... i am the master of my fate; i am the captain of my soul. but i guess god's like the vessel we sail in. we are at the helm, hands on the steering wheel. so whether we choose to head straight into a maelstrom, down a waterfall or towards the Lands Beyond~ it's still up to us. but if we choose to change, then god's the one supporting us, whichever direction we choose.
so. anyway. went to watch nus concert ytd. lolz the group of us ate dinner at crystal jade... a nice round table. and it was really nice... very convivial atmosphere. i think in e 2 years we spent together, many of us went past the peak of this batch relationship... so now distance and drift backed it up? i don't know. but to see everyone again... talking so animatedly and so warmly and so comfortably. it was nice =)
and continuing on from that model... i'm quite glad that for this batch, they popped so nicely just at that peak. ok la hard to determine where is the exact tip but we know it's around there. and so that's where it ends. no opportunity for it to continue down the trough. i'll be surprised if it does progress. perhaps it will... there seems like there could be enough precedence. 4 days in their entire bmt without seeing one another only -.- that is seriously powerful.
oh well. always look on the bright side. of life. *whistles* just ignore the shadows that the light cause =) ugh. cynical bitch. stop it.